My BFF

is pregnant. Yeah we just had lunch last weekend and she was telling me how her and her husband were going to start trying this month. We were set to ovulate around the same time and she was like maybe God was waiting for us to get pregnant together. I kind of laughed it off and was like yeah maybe...

I get an e-mail today that she is pregnant. I am so excited for her. Really, I am. But at the same time I am having conflicting emotions. I am so ready to be pregnant myself and she got pregnant without even trying. I'm sad, I'm happy, I'm bitter.

All I can do is pray that Andrew and I will get pregnant soon. I don't want to be bitter. I don't want to be that girl but every month it gets harder. And now, well, it would be awesome being pregnant together. Even at a few months apart just sharing these moments together would be a true blessing.

Sorry for the incoherant babbling and mix of emotions....I think I'm going to go take a nice hot bath...with some wine...