Happy Thanksgiving

I have so much to be thankful for...yet there is something missing...

Alright temp be that way

I tried to temp again this morning to see if I could see a rise. It was actually lower today than yesterday. Needless to say, I don't know whats going on. I'm going to just stick with my no charting guns and trust that if its God's plan it will happen. I mean come on 8 days in a row now? I'm exhausted. We both need a break. According to other charts I should have O'd by now and I'm going to go with that. This should be a fairly easy 2WW (if there is such a thing). I got a new job as a cheer coach at a local middle school, Thanksgiving is here in a couple of days, I have a ladies breakfast at my church the first week of December, and in the mean time make flyers and setup tryouts. I'm going to be very busy and thats a good thing. I don't know if I will get around to blogging again before Thanksgiving so I hope you all have a Happy Thanksgiving!!

97.47

Yeah, I took my temp this morning to check and see if I could tell if I have ovulated or not. And...I can't. My previous charts show that this is either a coverline temp or my very first couple of temps after I have ovulated. I'm pretty sure I ovulated Saturday seeing as this was a coverline temp only once in like 10 charts. Still to be on the safe side I believe Mr. Hosey and I will be romping it up again tonight. And if you are counting tonight will make 8 days in a row. I do think tonight will be our last night though. My usual day to ovulate is cycle day 17 (Saturday). Today is 19 which is my latest day to ovulate. I don't know what to do but my lady bits and his man bits have had enough.

Thoughts?

I have an announcement

Alright so I'm pretty proud of my sex effort so far this month and I of course have to report on it! I have had sex 3 days in a row and tonight will make 4! Now to a lot of you I am sure you're thinking pshhh but I don't think I have ever had sex 3 days in a row let alone 4. Even better is that last night Andrew didn't get home from work until around 11 and we still got busy! Go us! I am thinking I might be Oing around Saturday, Monday at the latest so we are just gonna keep on trucking...

I also found an article posted on GP and thought I would share it here as well.

http://www.reuters.com/article/oddlyEnoughNews/idUSTRE55T4TV20090630

So get strong little dudes we got work to do!

Oh and a half a bottle of wine and a bath went a long way the other night. I am no longer feeling as jealous and bitter. I'm happy for her and me....well I'm just gonna keep doing what I'm doing. Andrew and I will get there.

My BFF

is pregnant. Yeah we just had lunch last weekend and she was telling me how her and her husband were going to start trying this month. We were set to ovulate around the same time and she was like maybe God was waiting for us to get pregnant together. I kind of laughed it off and was like yeah maybe...

I get an e-mail today that she is pregnant. I am so excited for her. Really, I am. But at the same time I am having conflicting emotions. I am so ready to be pregnant myself and she got pregnant without even trying. I'm sad, I'm happy, I'm bitter.

All I can do is pray that Andrew and I will get pregnant soon. I don't want to be bitter. I don't want to be that girl but every month it gets harder. And now, well, it would be awesome being pregnant together. Even at a few months apart just sharing these moments together would be a true blessing.

Sorry for the incoherant babbling and mix of emotions....I think I'm going to go take a nice hot bath...with some wine...

Comfort

I still feel comfortable in my decision not to chart and to just breath this month. At the moment I am just waiting to ovulate...again. But just so you know I'm still here!

CD1

Yup, CD1 again. Not long after I posted I started spotting and it has continued through to AF. I kind of got upset at first, a little. But I am much calmer this time. I don't know what has happened the past couple of days but I just kind of...I don't know...relinquished the control. I might be ready to stop charting, stop drinking business juice, etc. Not because I am giving up but more so because I just feel different...I can't explain it. It's a strange kind of calm. I like it. I am not "trying to relax." I'm not saying necessarily "it will happen when it happens." Its more of...it's up to God. It's not up to pomegranite juice, green tea, or what ever other things I can come up with. If it were I would already be pregnant by now. God has a plan. I can't be mad at that. I can't change that.

It's going to be okay.

Proud of Myself

For the first time since we decided to TTC I did not test at 10 DPO. I did not test at 11 DPO. I did not test at 12 DPO. And I do not currently have any tests in the house. I fought off the urge to go out and buy some yesterday. A lot of this was due to the fact that I had a temp drop yesterday, still above my coverline but on some of my other charts (of course all BFNs) 11 DPO my temp drops and AF is usually on her way. It did come back up today but honestly that's what my other charts did too but then it's just a jagged decent until AF shows. I figure that will happen this time too and if by chance AF doesn't show by Thursday then I will take a test. I am not having any symptoms, phantom or AF, not even cramps anymore so we will just take it day by day and see what happens.